Terminally Joyful

Fatigue is real. What once was a quick easy bike ride becomes mountainous. My heart races. I need frequent rest breaks. My pace is...

As I have started to live on the other side of cytotoxic chemo. I am in my next quarter of NEAD.  It is interesting to live your life in...

We all have baggage. Life experiences that shape who we are as human beings. We all are ever changing and growing.  As humans we are damn...

After my second opinion I had to go back to my primary oncologist and advocate for some changes in my care.  I think Dr C. gets...

I cried today for someone I never met. Another young mom died from mbc. There have been at least 2 women that have died this week alone....

This journey is a crazy one.  It can be mentally draining as it is physical. On one hand I hear the statistic of the mean life expectancy...

Some days I pretend it is all a scary dream.  Some days I feel so normal that I think I must not have cancer.  Some days I catch myself...

One of the many conversations that I have with myself on a daily basis is what can I do to support myself with a disease that I can't...

October is here. Breast cancer awareness month. In 13 days it will be ONE year from the day that changed the rest of my life.That day I...

Life with metastatic breast cancer is exhausting, overwhelming, being hyper-vigilant, and paranoid. It is also amazing, joyful, hopeful...

The time is drawing near.  It is that time of year for Art Prize. Check out the link if you don't know about it. Now I am going to tell...

Some days I feel a bit like Chicken Little. The sky is falling, the sky is falling.  But instead of worrying about the sky I worry about...

When I taught at the university I thought one of my first publications would be in a professional journal. How life changes in a blink of...

SO things began a bit heavy.  Life can be heavy.  But really most days I feel great.  In January I set some goals for myself on my vision...

Sitting in the Adirondack chairs in front of Mission Point, this is my happy place. We have been coming here since I was pregnant with my...

This is my traveling Hope scarf. When you are going through chemo it takes a lot out of you.  First you are anxious, not knowing what to...

Metastatic and Makarios.  What does that mean?  Why is that the title of this blog? Well, the more familiar term is metastasis. The...